A piece written by My slave

A month and a half ago, i contacted Princess Chloe and asked Her to take power over me, starting with the right to decide if and when i am allowed to have orgasms. She accepted, and i have tried to serve Her since. i haven't come very far as Her slave, but She has told me to write about what this first period has been like, to give others an idea of what they can expect, and what She will expect of them if they contact Her. 

First let's go back a bit. i've been your regular Kinkbomb clip viewer and lurker to the online Domme scene for a while. At some point i realized that watching and dreaming wasn't enough for me, so i began thinking about how to turn the fantasy of submitting to a superior Woman into reality. That's a long and dull story, but the end of it was that i found myself circling back over and over again to the clips, sites and articles of Princess Chloe. 

What attracted me to Her was, on one level, the things i knew i was looking for: A beautiful, sexy Domme, with an interest in orgasm control and a streak of playful cruelty. 

But what tipped the scale was something i hadn't really known i was looking for: An intelligent, interesting Woman with a rich inner life who is very conscious about what She is doing. Someone whose approach to domination isn't to throw out random insults, but to get inside Your head and use that knowledge to control and humble you. 

Princess Chloe has written many articles exploring different sides of this. i read as man of them as i could find, and each one made me understand Her better, and increased my trust in and respect for Her. 

So i sent Her a tribute, and introduced myself, and told Her what i was looking for. That sounds difficult, but with any Domme i suspect you're off to a good start if you're respectful and honest, and can piece together coherent sentences. That alone sets you apart from all those who aren't. (Think about it, guys, can you imagine waking up every morning to a mailbox full of the kind of crazy shit people like us write at our horniest? Being a submissive starts with being a gentleman.) 

And with Princess Chloe, it's even easier to do this right, because She's written several articles that explain exactly how she wants potential subs to introduce themselves to Her, what to do and what not to do. So i just read those, and did that. And that worked. Hey, how about that. Who would have guessed that a Domme actually likes it when you follow Her instructions?

The hard part was the weeks that followed, when i was trying to get used to the idea of being in another person's power, while at the same time, Princess Chloe was difficult to get in touch with for the kind of personal shit-happens-reasons that even superior Women aren't safe against. i didn't have much to go on for a while. No rules or assignments, just a few chats and a starting agreement about Her being in charge of my orgasms. i was tempted to give up, but i thought: This is important to me. i need to make this work. i'll give this two months, and no matter what happens, i'll stick with it for that long. 

i didn't have to wait that long. And when She came back, She came like a storm, and i've been trying to keep up with Her since. i'm too much in the middle of this now to have much to say about it. It feels like a net closing slowly but steadily in around me, which, if you're anything like me, you'll find about equal parts exhilerating and frightening. There's not much to say beyond that. But i thought i'd share some of the things i've learned about Princess Chloe so far. 

Princess Chloe likes assignments that involve writing. (Like this.) She likes them, i think, because it allows Her to understand her slaves better, get on the inside of their minds. For a D/s relationship to be real, there has to be an intimate connection. With a distance relationship, there's no physical intimacy, so words and thoughts have to make up for it by playing a more important role.

Princess Chloe wants obedience, but she wants honesty even more. If you must choose, choose honesty. i hadn't thought much about this, but i've realized how important it is that honesty comes first. Honesty requires trust, of course, and trust takes time, but if you're not at least aiming to be fully honest with your Domme, you're missing out on something. i mean, who else do you have in your life who you can tell your darkest fantasies and most embarrassing secrets to without being laughed at? That is, she _will_ laugh at you, and use them against you to make you Her weak and pliable little puppet, but .. you know what i mean. There's nothing left to hide. So why hide anything at all. Why would i want to miss out on that?

Princess Chloe hates entitlement, the idea that you have a right to anything at all from Her. Entitlement tells Her that you're forgetting your place, that you think of yourself as a customer buying a service, not a slave serving your Princess / Mistress / Goddess. The fact that She makes a living out of this doesn't change that. i don't mean that i don't expect my servitude to her to also fulfill many of my own needs and desires. The question is how that expectation expresses itself, as a whiny demand or as a respectful plea to a superior. 

Princess Chloe doesn't like over-sexualized slaves who want to be told exactly what to stick and where to stick it and what to do with the sticky stuff afterwards. That's partly why She likes chastity so much, because then She can just lock it up and hide it away and get You to focus on making Her happy. 

Princess Chloe respects your limits, (but She will push them).

Princess Chloe is not evil or irresponsible, (but She can be cruel).

Princess Chloe doesn't mind ending the day with a drive-by wallet-rape or a Teamviewer fuckover, but what She looks for in a long-term slave is a steady buildup towards permanent commitment and servitude. She wants to run your life, not ruin it.

Princess Chloe has a large number of non-Domme related interests and hobbies, and even a couple of side careers. She's a multi-talent who likes to involve Her slaves in all the many fascinating sides of Her life. 

Princess Chloe is probably smarter than you are. It's a bit frightening, actually, how intelligent, creative and overall talented She is. 

And that's it so far. my hope for the future is that i will be able to continue serving Her, and that Her control over my life will continue to increase, up to some unknown limit i have not discovered yet. That's not going to be easy, and, honestly, it scares me. But i'll keep on trying, because i realize that if i can't find a way to serve somebody as fantastic as Princess Chloe, then maybe i'm just not cut out to turn my submissive fantasies into reality. And that frightens me more than anything else.